Dear Koos
To see you struggle breaks my heart, but wakes me up to the fact that I have chosen a sober L-I-F-E. That means it will not be easy tomorrow, it will not be easy 25 years from now. It will be life, as we all know it. With ups and downs, disasters and miracles. And yes, to us Alkies there is no more escape in the once marvellous oblivion of alcohol. But there is escape in knowing, we can add one more day, ever moving, progressing. One sober day at a time. Disaster or not. And the reward of that peace can not be found in any Chardonnay I know of.
Remember that you are an inspiration. For someone like me who has tried and failed so many times, you are a reason for trying again. You are the embodiment of possibility. Don't ever sell yourself short on your daily achievement.
Regarding the Pig: My father was never very present, especially when compliments where needed. So after I saw the movie Babe, about an exceptional sheep-pig, I liked the way the farmer used to say,"That'll do, Pig, That'll do" - I remember imagining my father saying even just that. So by now you guested it, I'm the happy pig.
So on staying sober: That'll do, Koos, That'll do.
My husband and I have had a strange - to say the least - weekend. We are both sober - by choice - for the first time since we met each other in 2001. So firstly, we anticipated having very little to say, and even less to do. But it wasn't anything like that. We talked, we even had a braai without beer, which had us giggling when my husband said (with a very straight face): "mmm I braaied without a beer, and nothing happened". I don't think I will never forget that face. Epiphany personified!
Anyway, the weekend was great. Building bridges. Some discussions were easier than others, but we had the discussions, and that's what matters. Forgiveness is sure to follow, I am sure. It's a critical step if we have any chance of getting through this and living. For us Alkies there is no room for resentment. It's a surefire way to hit the bottle again - somewhere along the line. I think we both realise that we need to finish this chapter and really move on. New, sober, really happy people - regardless of life happening.
So on that note I would like to share something my boss said on Friday. He has always been a roll model for me and he will be leaving end of May which fills me with sorrow. But he permanently impacted on my life with these words:
" Have a plan for your life. And deliver on your plan. Remember your are the customer." - T.J. Kirsten
Sannie
Hi Piggie
Have laptop back, sort of working condition, felt lost without it the weekend.
Just hello and goodbye...great to read about your fruitful weekend talks-share-dare with your husband and the braai without beer...miracles do happen all over the house.
Your bosses quote...I would like to add..."and the customer is king, he/she is delivers/determines your sobriety."
Looking forward to the meeting and your enthusiasm around your new found happiness.
Makes a old alkie happy!
This must do for now.
K
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