Ghost of Christmas passed

It really hits me sometimes how quickly time passes. It's scary, yet comforting. There is so much I would still like to do and see in my life, yet life keeps interferring.
I have been sick with the flu for almost a week and I am realizing that I am not 20 anymore. It really knocked me out this year. I will have to start taking better care of myself physically.
We went to Bloemfontein to visit my father in law over the weekend. It really shook me up. Having to deal with an active alcoholic on a daily basis again after months of not dealing with any alcoholic behavior had an unexpected taxing effect. I felt so drained. And I was petrified. Maybe the fact that he pretended not to drink - but was obviously sloshed by 5 is what got me the most. Alcoholics are really stupid - seriously - thinking no one will notice. That's just insane! I never drank secretly or hid alcohol, but my husband did. The deception really got me the most. But I suppose I did some stupid things myself back in the day. I was just so scared that everything my husband and I had built up, would be torn down because of familiarity.
I'm just happy to be home.
I attended a meeting again for the first time in weeks. I really shouldn't stay away so long. I really needed the meeting and we had a very fitting discussion about resentment.
My cat has disappeared. I am praying she'll show up some time today. I really love that cat.