Day 80

I did not attend my meeting on Monday...and I'm feeling it. At work we call it scope creep when a task keeps getting bigger and bigger every time you near completion. Life has a lot of scope creep I find. Life is dynamic as apposed to static, yet we are all programmed to want a place of peace, stillness, quiet and contentment and in parallel with that more control, more money, more house. I am starting to believe it is impossible.

Every time you think you have done or attained what you believe makes you happy and content, you spiritually or emotionally evolve and the bar goes higher. I don't think peace and contentment is a permanent state of being, I believe it's a moment of being. Something that will never cover your entire existence, but will mercifully bring to a standstill some aspects of your existence. E.g., I may be content with my relationships, but I may be fighting a storm at work.

I have created a Serenity Garden for myself at home. It was really hard work and not entirely complete, but there I find my small dose of peace and contentment everyday. I love it there. Sitting on my new deck, experiencing my lavender, rosemary, thyme, pumpernickel etc etc growing in their newly fertilized spots of earth makes me happy. And I realise...this bar we keep setting higher, does it even have a purpose other that to steal our joy and happiness? Can I do anything else with that stick other that take it of it's perch and hitting myself or someone else with it? probably, but for now I'm throwing it away.

" If everything you measure falls short - it's time to change your measuring stick."