I have a feeling of emptiness, a quietness, a looming, eerie void inside me. I can't really call it an emotion because I experience no motion, nor can it really be described as a feeling because I feel nothing, not even numbness. Just quiet, but not in a peaceful way. I'm empty.
No tears, no laughter, no drive, no excitement, just nothing. Just existing. Staring. At the wall mostly.
I thought I felt sad, but then I'd expect to want to cry.
I thought I felt relief, but then I'd expect to have energy.
I thought I felt freedom, but then I would want to move.
I thought I felt love, but then I would experience longing.
But, nothing.
I thought blogging might help. It didn't really. Still nothing.
Today, really was not..a..good..day..
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