For the life of me I don't think my baby sister and I will EVER get along. And I don't get it. She hates me with such absolute coldness and passion that she had become in-penetrable. Some history:
Mys sister is 3 years younger than me. She had been full of resentment and hate for our family since she was 12. Life with her was a roller coaster of drinking, drugs, psychological disorders, suicide attempts and never ending feuds. She always had some or other war running with someone. Still has. She does something wrong - and by wrong I really mean wrong - and if you try to point out to her that maybe that was not the most moral thing to do - you get the next fued.
One thing that has been a constant in my sisters life is - if she needs you, she will make you believe she has changed, she gets along with you, hell, sometimes I even start believing she loves me. And then it starts. She milks you dry. Emotionally, physically and of course financially. Then she moves on. And this is the part where I crack, because she literally chews you up and spits you out.
It was easy to deal with this behavior when I did not recognize it. When I couldn't call a spade a spade. I know I have judged her terribly in the past and I have tried to give her the benefit of the doubt. Especially now that I am sober. But I have now finally decided that my sister needs to go on the "people I do not need in my life ever" - list. Some relationships just cannot work. Even if you are siblings. This is one of them.
I don't get why she screws up and I end up feeling bad? This happens every single time.
Anyway, enough bitching. That's done.
Paul Smietanka | July 13, 2011 at 10:22 AM
This is not bitching. But expression of valid and, among 'us,' genuine experience. Thank you for the honesty and openness.