Yesterday was tough. Really tough. I felt empty. I sat opposite the attorney, giving all my personal details. It felt like applying for at passport. I had to give the two major reasons I want the divorce. It was easy. I am scared of my husband and I do not trust him near my daughter. I was completely void of emotion. That is what bothered me. Thinking back on the drive home I could see the little bits and pieces of my life that had crumbled away over the past decade. I harly recognised myself. It hurt. I felt so acutely powerless, that I became angry. Then I cried. I cried about the "what ifs", the "it happened's", the "could have's" and the million unanswered "why's".
I feel better today. I feel a little bit lost. This whole situation is unchartered territory. I've taken the day off from the journey. I'm just going to regroup, resupply and re-energise myself today. I have done as much as I can do, for now.
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