Try to say THANK YOU sometimes

I thought allot about my miserable state of mind and also the effect my stinking thinking has on it.
This morning I got an email from a very good friend I haven't seen in months, maybe even years! She's going to have baby. She's going to be a wonderful mother. We decided to meet up for lunch some time next week. When looking at my diary I realised how much I have to be grateful for. I am almost fully booked every weekend until the end of the year. I have a University Alumni function to attend, a weekend away on my own booked and payed, my darling daughter's ballet exam, high tea with my two best friends, lunch with a dear friend I am dying to see and my new wonderful boss gave me two weeks leave over December - no payback needed - even though I have no leave! My life is actually starting to look like the life I had imagined. Filled with things I want to do and not always have to do because I feel guilty or to keep the peace. I have friends who want to see me! I no longer have to worry about how other people will behave or how embarrassed I might be. I know I can stay as long as I want because nothing is interfering with any one's drinking time.
It seems I have been filling the GAP already, I was just too ungrateful to see it. I moved the mountain and I am saying THANK YOU and walking towards a brand new horizon. Thank you God!