Day 18

So today I am HIV Negative, but a whole lot more positive than yesterday. I also understand why I was so angry. I was actually ashamed, that even though I felt it was cruel, I probably deserved it. I was the the promiscuous one, I guess HIV is a reality when you behave that way. But that's over now.

My Husband did forgive me. I guess he only wanted to see some emotion from my side. Something I am not particularly good at. But I managed.

I have decided to stop worrying about other people, and write about my journey. Not my husbands. Everything that impacts on him or me - because of him, will be handled separately. Or not at all.

Resentments

Every response to every resentment, real or imagined,
had been sick and self-destructive.
I was allowing others to control my sense of well-being and behavior.
I came to understand that the behavior, opinions, and thoughts of others
were none of my business.
The only business I was to be concerned with was my own!
- Alcoholics Anonymous, p. 468


Thought to Ponder . . .
We are prisoners of our own resentments;
forgiveness unlocks the door and sets us free.