Dreaming

Mondays in general suck, but today is a fairly busy one. Mostly sorting out other people's mishaps and explaining away other people's half truths. I seem to be very good a that...

I'm also slightly tired. I had a wonderful weekend. It started a little bumpy, I was very reserved on Saturday morning and quite frankly felt like drinking at 8am. So I hit the garden and did some maintenance on my chicken coop and instantly felt better. I always feel so close to God in my garden and I realised while talking to Him, whether I wanted to or not - I have committed to being part of the solution. No matter how scared or cautious I was. So I perked up and such started a fun filled weekend during which I could feel peace settling back into our home.

Regarding my dreams. I have been having really bad recurring nightmares about being deceived. (or so I think). Maybe I'm just paranoid, but here are the two dreams I keep having:

1. Shapeshifters.

These people, who are all familiar to me, invite me to go to this social gathering. I don't want to go, but I am eventually persuaded. The people keep trying to reasure me that they are the people they seem to be. Sort of over explaining. When I arrive I immediatly sense that something is wrong. I feel nervous, anxious and want to leave. Then I finally flee to this tiny bathroom with light blue walls where I find my daughter and she takes forever to finish. But she is so calm, and she's not afraid of the people and trust them.
I eventually flee and end up in the parking lot of this grey mall that only sells high tech equipment. I have been wanting to go inside the mall forever, but I am always late even though I can see other people shopping behind the glass walls.
I alsways wake up anxious and frustrated from this dream.

2. The prize

In this dream I am very happy and exited and possitive about, mainly, my job. But I have this joyful overflowing character that even annoys me in the dream. I get awarded this "Miss Conginiality" type award for the most enthusiastic person at work. But everyone is furious and this starts this huge debate over which prize I actually should get. Then everything starts happening in duplicate, which causes me to end up in this grand apartment supposedly for the directors of the company I work for. Here I have to see the IT director about all the duplicates on my PC, but I am soaked and outside it's scary and dark and pouring. So they offer me a shower and pajamas (mine ???), I discuss the problem with the IT director (who by the way had no clue what she was talking about), and then my daughter comes to fetch me and again she is so happy, trusting and excited.
When we get outside she's gone, and some of my suppliers are there accusing me of going behind their backs on a deal. But I am calm, laugh at them and say - well, it sure got you here fast...
I always wake up with a feeling of being disliked and lonely after this dream. I get awarded a duplicate of some pink fluffy prize for a good attitude....?

I don't know, maybe I'm just over emotional, maybe I should be getting a message - all I know is, tonight I'm taking a sleeping pill.