Living today

Its Monday again and I am really looking forward to the week ahead. I took some time yesterday to just calm down from the chaos of separation, my family and all the other "need to be dones". I spent a quiet morning in my garden, fixing the fountain and cleaning the chicken coop. I had tea in my peace garden and spoke to God.

I know what I am expected to do. It's not going to be easy, but it's going to be worth it.
I gave God all the negative feelings that I am feeling. Anger, resentment, abandonment, disappointment, not feeling loved, feeling used and cheated. I feel lighter today and I know it will get better. My happiness does not depend on a person, but in God I will find peace, love and happiness.

My life has changed so much in the last 3 years since finding AA and now Alanon. I have so much already to be thankful for. I will count my blessings today and thank God for never leaving my side and for being here at the beginning of a new phase in my journey. Looking back is a good reflection, but I just want to deal with today. I will live today to the best of my ability. If I cannot help, I will not harm. I will attend to issues as they arise. I will love unconditionally. I will trust God, smile and I stay sober.

Just today.