Acceptance is when a person agrees to experience a situation, to follow a process or condition (often a negative or uncomfortable situation) without attempting to change it, protest, or exit.It's strange how once things start looking up for a recovering addict, we start gravitating towards obsessing over something else. Well, at least I do.
The more my life changes and the more comfortable being sober feels, the more I obsess about the what ifs of the future. I am really scared that I won't make the next 60 odd years of my life sober. What will happen if I don't? What can I put in place to prevent myself from relapsing?
And then I realise that I have to accept that I have little or no control over anything except not taking the first drink - today. I have to trust God to keep me sober. So to day I have decided that I will agree to experience sobriety, one day at a time as it may be. I am going to allow myself to heal and grow.
It's been 44 days.
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